me: ok I'm out of film, we're done.
her: can I have my chocolate milk back now?
me: no.
her: [ this face ]
Next to her contented food coma face, this was my favorite...
And I would enjoy it for a nice long minute,...
Because when I eventually handed back her chocolate milk or onigiri or half eaten slab of tofu,...
There would be this,...
So yes I was an ass on more than one occasion.
This is An.
We ate camouflage cheesecake,...
not a cheesecake that was camouflaged,... that would be horrid,... knowing that there is cheesecake but not being able to find it.
no,... it's what you get when you make a cheesecake with chocolate and macha (green tea).
I dont remember everything we talked about,... my memory gets worse when banter is in Japanese,... but we share a mutual love of cheesecake and desserts in general.
We walked, we talked, we ate,... it's been a while since I've shot like that. I've been distracted by work and video and volunteering so far this summer...
But you need the busy,..
It reminds you of what you really love,... and how you really love to do it.
But oh do I get distracted,...
I forget that I'm not 21 with all the time in the world to explore and experiment to my heart's content.
No,... I'm almost 40 and I'm running out of time,.... well maybe not time but rather energy,...
It would be too easy to just go with the flow,... mostly because I am on a pretty comfortable raft heading down a rather tepid slow winding river.
There is nothing to complain about,... and that is what I'm complaining about.
I dont want to stay on this raft because I know exactly where it goes,... and it's not pretty but it's also not horrible,... it's pretty beige actually,... and that is what frightens me.
Tom over at Tinyroomstudio.net took a look inside the incoherent mess that is my head:
Photographers You Should Know #1: Shuji Moriwaki; Portraits
Tom,... he looked,.. he really looked at my work,... perhaps a bit than I look at my own.
And he came with some heavy questions,.. asking about things I had never really thought that much about before.
Because you don't really.
But it make's you think,...
and you go back over your own work,...
and you need that.
but then you need to stop,...
accept it as part of you,..
put it to bed,..
and move on,..
maybe you'll change now that you're aware,...
maybe not,..
maybe it'll grow into something else,...
maybe not,...
gotta love this arty farty stuff :)
